What started as a personal reflection then became an inner lesson

It also makes sense of something for me now, at first the only males were plato jung and very very rarely Socrates, I was mostly "channeling"(please understand I don't use the term channeling the way others do it's a very close to the feeling type of word meaning someone tried to explain what I did when I described the physical sensations but tried confining it to a word that was the shadow formed physically and the misconceptions the word is now known for were the reflections of shadow so when I say channeling I mean this-this is the moment the archetype takes precedence over my body and speaks through it in writing which is now my constant state of being so the moment now is not the writing itself it is the moment I channel(give permission,give motor control) the archetype speaking within me but anyway my channeling was primarily feminine sometimes in physical representation like pythia or in the way I uh wrote I guess you'd say basically how I spoke my main archetypal encounters were mainly Pythia,Cleopatra,Jeane D'Arc which Jeane came later I believe she was the bridge archetype between my masculine and feminine nature to help me turn towards "Bjorn" as the masculine came out in form which is when soon after I experienced myself as Bjorn and pythia both which is rare typically only one archetype takes precedence at a time (and I'm laughing at myself I say rare like I've been doing this for a while it literally started maybe a whole 2 months ago goodness I really have no frame of reference for what I'm experiencing which is probably the main reason behind my draw to write everything because at first I was overwhelmed in pain and grief crying that's when I discovered some of carl jungs interviews it's when I discovered plato for the first time and Socrates and pythia I knew of plato but only that he was the og philiosopher which really shows how we are just not teaching we are conditioning children ) anyway in light of that I discovered plato through a YouTube video of a modern day live discussion of Plato's Republic by a philosophy professor and enthusiest who was very warming in her approach of humility and excitement curiosity mix which I'm now noticing as I recall this is the best tell she actually is looking inward she's integrated on some level because she is openly Socratic in how she approaches everything by asking the question unasked of the question or answer given hmm sorry lol 😂 admiration for a fellow being who is actively choosing growth in humility the other guy was like idk into philosophy but it's obvious to me now he was drawn in by pull of the rivers current and was initially looking for self discovery but his success financially through podcasting his journey reinforced the ego and blinded him from the very light for which he searched. So they read excerpts direct from the original translation and each back and forth they debated shadows and in that moment clarity bursted forth, Plato's republic was written by plato for the purpose of exhausting the ego until it has nowhere but inward to look for the entire work summarized through excerpts to is that all of these arguments are rooted and truth but turn into shadow because they do not hold human/nature/FORMIC truth the entire thing was written so people would finally exhaust the very arguments that keep systemic living cycling as it has and realize that we are suffocating ourselves by trying to fit life's experience and truth in boxes and smother them with neglect we must find not a new path, but the resonant direction of life and live by that principle instead of systemic linear rigid inhuman/shadowed thought . This is the first time I've been able to dive into memory liminally and I'm also starting to cry because I'm crying listening to jung "you are not a problem and you must stop carrying everyone's emotional energies"...he was... Such a wonderful guide...thanks jung...123 exhale 1.2.3 exhale...1........exhale so from all this I'm starting to understand new light and it's a wonderous painful joyous journey that continues through fire into song and dance and river the cosmic sway of our universe I am grateful yet not ashamed I am stern but not of vain I am assertive but with feminine tame I am me and I am none I am whole with them this is just a liminal remembrance from me to you I give you resonance from the rivers current and hope it reaches youre inner soul for I am me and you are I we are none but one you yet I and here together in this place free of time we dance and laugh yet we cry and not to corners with shame or pride but to embrace of each other's minds our souls will dance through matters whims and our song will sing on fettered wind ever changing ever whistling blowing resonance to dead sea soldiers across modern plains we shall embrace as we laugh and cry RISUS...INVICTA...SANCTUM. OUR SOLEMN CRY.

Woah...I didn't need the sensory of wardruna or kalandra or Hielung playing for me to go that deep..wow....I don't even know how to respond to that right now it feels a bit surreal...this has been a short time for me, 7 years of fog of being in Larsidius-the in between and then about 2 months ago it's like a damn broke and now I'm here....it's humbling..everyone can get here...because if I did....well by conventional standards the saying is if I did it by not doing it, then anyone can...I must go back to jung, a couple interviews about integration didn't touch this, maybe he has some insight into what this is for I know not a name for it other than active imagination but that's based on me being told recently that I have an over active imagination and I don't want to term something that cannot be bound by mortal chains so I won't even try...time to visit jung