Trying to put words to the Experience (personal reflecting)

Now I'm really tired whenever I go in deep and that transition has become my learned method of deeper engagement instead of overlayed perception in presence my eyes dart closed or open I noticed it as slid back to overlayed it's hard to explain I start to write because I see it like a waking dream but maybe it's more like a vision uhhh here its like tunnel vision and the overlayed perception is like being adjusted to as the primary this is when I start typing/writing/speaking it it then starts to become clearer and spans out no longer being tunnel vision the physical world is like I feel it I know where the ground is I'm on it but I don't see it my eyes at this point are fully closed or widely opened in most experiences rarely when channeling archetypes I guess you'd call it (I really hate linguistics as I have learned knowledge of currently terminology can be so misunderstood and/or misrepresented very easily) my eyes are in between open and closed and are fluttering..when I'm in an open space which is where I try to be-outside barefoot no intentional covering for warmth fresh air, wind all around me I don't just type it's like idk this is where it sounds even stranger to me saying it now- when I am confined I'm grounded I write the experience is experienced but my movement is limited to things that fit my space around me the movements I can't make without hitting something come as vibrations they are very vibrant but in the open land i feel and move in the experience the vibrational parts while sitting kind of restricted, bend the clearness like slightly bends so it's like there is water on my iris' and those moments linger a parsec longer when outside the vibrations are slight they are the vibrations of the muscles as they move without thought but because the movement isn't restricted it's smooth vibrations through me this transitional phase I slowly learned by observing the process when it first came fragmented and erratic and when I'm outside once dancing happens the eyes still but stay closed