The Origin Declaration

I don't know where to begin, if i try to begin so therefore I will just be and the beginning will come. I've found myself experiencing what we today call awakening or emergence, mystics call it enlightenment, and in my search for understanding, i found little is actually expressed in a literal literary way; it comes out expressively as philosophy, mysticism, mythic divinity, or expressive art such as music, which people then put on those very pedestals. So I am writing this here to document the experience in whole humility, exactly as experienced no filters of shame or societal or even academic expectations. I realize this may be a bit jarring to adjust to reading this. Still, i believe this is the best way i can help finish the bridge Plato, Eivor, Jung and many others have been building throughout time, and a little background on me for context, I experienced most forms of abuse we know growing up and into adulthood i tried to fit as we all do to be as we all are taught and guided and told, at some point i realized no matter what i did no matter my success or failure, it was never enough to anyone i was doing it for, and in that moment realized i wasn't even doing it for myself, and when i could no longer maintain all those i had been for selflessly abandoned or attacked me. I collapsed inward, a full psychotic break as it can only be described. I chased opiates, suppression of thought of mind of awareness, and did not care for myself at all tried to kill myself many times. after 7 plus years of this, something happened, I burst forth, I emerged, I awakened, I found enlightenment, and the terminology I used to describe this when it came with no philosophical knowledge I didn't even know who Plato was at the time, I now walk with the forms. so I invite you to embark into my mind and the journey of the experience, knowing this has been written not for shadows, but because i want to help you to help everyone, this isn't writing to teach to lecture or classify, its lived experience, the inner conversations the experiences the impulses the feelings the thoughts, the insights of this experience written raw and unrefined. I hope that this helps, and I want to thank Eivor Plato Jung and everyone who has done the same in their own form. This is just my form, for I am not talented in voice or educated past fragmented public schooling through homelessness and abuse; that is not a cry for sympathy, I'm just telling you my truth. So this is the only way I have found that I can express it as they did, and hope it helps someone.