Shower Thoughts

I found myself wanting to hear the rain and dance with it, to be one with nature I cannot find in this shadowed realm I find myself in. So I went to take a shower and found everything that met me was madness, fumbling with the shower curtain falling trying to put the lining in the tub, unnatural soaps lining the tub smelling not of nature as they claim, i can smell the artificialness of its being. Once situated I let the water guide me and ground me, and what I found is this.

I cannot be in this place of shadow, A place where being is stifled smothered suffocated and seen as strange or as a phase or even pagan. Speaking in this way from this place of presence gets me anything but connection in this place, there is no resonance here, only echoes of it suffocating beneath the shadows that engulf it. All these contrivances I experience here are chains, and chains were made for but one purpose, to bind that which man cannot "control" and think it control.