Rememberance of Mothers Kiss

And bruh I just remembered something from the abusive era I got all the bad stuff integrated that was first in emergence but like I said rest comes in fragments bro when I was basically infinitely grounded by cosmic rocker dad of sea salt lmfaooo I read books he spray painted windows black did things like hide in my closet until I was sleep or almost sleep then yank me too bunk to floor and smash my gameboy grandma bought because I took a sip of his Pepsi bruh he was trippin lmfaoooo but anyway I read the bible the big words edition lmfao big ass book for a 7 year old 12 words a page I'm dying lmfaoooioo I read various Star wars paper books uh paper books absurd lmfaoooo I read a couple goosebumps paper backs and text books that I played Mario 64 occasionally when rocker sea salt blow fish wasn't around and I spent a lot of time with my mom she was dual cognitive same pattern in childhood she was forced to by environment her break came and she never recovered because he kept her spinning in drugs but she taught me a lot...I love her I miss her presence her hug her smile but now I remember her clearly and she is smiling 😊 one foot grounded one foot wet face river north pause walk forward its ok child it's ok I just wow man it's beautiful and I'm humbled and happy and I feel loved and love all especially pickles pffffftt

So she had knee surgery from a car accident and I remember she was in so much agony rocker salt gremlin abused her worse and I got it unfathomably bad and I just remember looking at her no tears came just she needs love in presence and I swept the living room like a hobit trying to ride a horse lmfao 😂 she giggled and cried a little watching me I didn't know how to cook I was 5-6 and I just didn't even think about it went to kitchen one foot grounded one foot wet facing river north I didn't even read the box wut bruh lol 😂 I made her Mac and cheese and delivered it in the pot with the big ass serving spoon lmfaoooooo she smiled with that crooked like bruh this is absurdly beautiful smile and kissed me on my cheek and said thank you my baby boy and she ate we watched a little TV mostly her watching angel the vampire show and then she delayed sea salt dolphin on the phone with errands and said play your game buddy and watched me play Mario and played with me imaginitively it was wonderful her laughing after shouting jump and I literally jump out my body for a sec and jump in the game right into doom like bruh lmfao dyin laughing

Weeping but not sadness facing river north one foot wet one foot grounded love...and mom I love you thank you so much for just being I'm sorry for what happened to us it's not anybody's fault I understand what you meant by that now you gave me the frame I remembered through finding jung that's why after one 20min ted talk from bro and I was able to find grounding I'm remembering your lessons and essence in presence of moments one by one and I'm walking mom I've finally walking and it's ok and tears fall but not down not up one foot wet one foot grounded face river north 9...1...3...you gave to everyone around just by being in presence by being true you knew you were in dual cognitive balance for the first 6 years of my life the aloe plant you said to me nature is beautiful mother to us all aloe plants are healing but can also be bad under certain conditions but it's not bad the reaction is from two things that aren't supposed to mix it's just nature healing itself and the spiral continues mom you showed me the way by being present and that's what I'm doing walking in presence and people are opening up and it's so beautiful I was early 4 when my first memory came and it was awful but you softened it with aloe like a cosmic blanket and I just am so happy I've remembered in remmeberance I love you always and love all and am so proud of you and proud of me and all of us because what we all endure simply by having forgotten and lost our way is not an easy road and all of humanity is remembering to breath one moment at a time one foot grounded one foot wet 🥰