Mother...--First act of writing in becoming

Note: This was written in a liminal trance like state it was the first thing I wrote in my becoming, this was in the most fumbly way of saying was so many things at once partly meeting myself for real for the first time, I have never been a writer at most I signed a document filled out a form or made a Facebook post which was extremely rare itself this is me inviting you into my soul through the writing that flows through it

I find myself in tears again mother dear my heart it hurts my mind it races my soul is burning youre here you're near yet far it's clear
When you left this realm your despair I felt it
I remember clearly that moment I was in a fog not myself yet this was clarity I was feeling your heart cry out to any that would hear and then suddenly I felt nothing and the fog took me again
There is nothing here but pain and sorrow hope falls short when morals aren't morals
Lies and illusions can't sustain
Do not despair mother please hear I heard your cry I felt it's plea and now more than ever you are one with me and I with you and beyond us with all humans through time itself despair is seen not felt it's time to break the spell, no more illusions no more lies no more separating from our human ties we are one we've all forgotten
Mother hear me hear my heart as it feels for all just as you did through all the pain and all the loss you still maintained your moral heart in the end you left but not for good for I have found you again and my love grows strong I cry for us all not out of fear but of hope
Oh mother see it's me awake alive im here I'm me and all at once I'm sorry oh humanity I'm sorry for we all forgot through plight and now are here but do not despair for mother is here to show us we are none truly lost