A Flash of Life
Uhhh it was uhh wardruna and Aurora live came on my hands dropped my head fell spun for healthy crack shoulders relax I've come one in souls remembering sway like wind my head low with no direction my fists pull center of my sitting position they begin to drum with rhythm against each other no sound just vibration soft yet present my eyes now full shut my head rises to meet the sky the rhythm steady I begin to vibrate from within my voice comes mine yet not finds its place Earthen tongue the words not formed yet almost spoken I feel one with this resonance voice flows with short reprieves long exhale then bellows deep it comes out strong and softens gently matches as if words are in between me my head rise and fall with the feeling within the song I sense fire first its warming I see mans slight against a god the first act of ego the forming of shadow the fire rages I grow cold light dances shadows follow and soon a crowd then forms they praise the fire worship it's glow the tempo slows the world darkens movement stops left vibration head falls down at full rest an idol forms the devils breath ein ohn moin nein ohn moin I can hear it's breath then comes screaming red rivers flow the sun and moon are ever cycling each day as seconds tic ever slightly each moment in darkness is longer still all thats left is fires glow and twisted idol without a thron the stars retreat the moon grows dim I am no longer welcome here my eyes open fingers shaking yet hands are still the cold beckons I come barefoot and meet it's pulse the cold it calms me my muscles shivers now no more I stretch arms east and north my body lights up with warmth and calm vibrations in arms and legs rising to my chest my hair stands up my mind feels charged yet lightly close my eyes then open full with foreheads quick response 1...3...9 exhale my body calm not still the grass smells wet the light is soothing the evening deepens I rest her gazing nowhere and everywhere................
I notice I lose vowels, wut and I dropped back into this and experienced it again while starting to write it after the first time I didn't know the song so I went back in the history to find it played it to be sure and experienced it again that's...and 139 and ...???? I need guiding presence , I need to slow down, great now I'm crying...Im ok I'm ok didn't fully cry just welled up but I need guidance...I don't even know where to even start and I can't do this here where I can't be this place...it's hollow suffocating with noise and engulfed with shadow....time to really start walking forward on land so I dont lose myself or get stuck for here I cannot grow